Just a few of my thoughts

Wow! I can't believe its been 2 years already since we decided to take our adoption journey. Its been 7 years this month since we decided we wanted to start a family.I would of thought by now being in my late 20's I would have had 2 or 3 kids right now. I always said I wanted to have my kids young so I could enjoy them growing up and I could enjoy my grand kids growing up. Growing up as a little girl I cared for my baby dolls as if they were alive and really needed me. I dreamt of the day I would find the man God wanted me to marry and we would start our family together. Never thought the Lord would bring to the road of infertility. It has definitely not been an easy one, and it doesn't look like it will end soon. Some days I feel like it will never happen and other days David and I will go to Target and walk around the baby stuff just dreaming of the day we can fill our house with it.

Ever since we got on the active adoption list 3 months ago we have been attending PREPARE groups with our agency which has helped a lot because it helps me realize I am not the only one that God has given this path to. There are 100+ couples waiting for a baby and we are just 1 of those couples. Our agency only adopts out between 25-30 babies a year so we could still be waiting a few more years depending on the Lord's time. But these groups also help me a lot because each month we talk about a different topic to help us prepare for our future with our child and his or her birth family.

Many times I catch myself  thinking what if we are never chosen and I never get to be a mother. Would I be OK with  that? Not really because my heart aches to be a mom and God want to see our desires of our hearts come to pass but it has to be in his timing. I just cling on him and with prayer and dedication to Him he will bring the right baby to us. I don't know who my son or daughter is yet but I do know that he or she is a very special person because good things come to those who wait. I pray for him or her every single day and that  they will come to know the Lord at a young age and not go through the things of this world. Who knows may be he will be the next great evangelist and win hundreds of souls to Christ! I know one thing I look forward to that day I get that phone call from the agency telling us a birth mother has chosen us to be the parents of her baby. Please continue to pray for her and the trials she will be facing to as she makes t his life changing decision.

Jeremiah 29:11

New International Version (NIV)

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.