Just a few short months ago my grandma was diagnosed with cancer. The tumor she has is inoperable so the Doctor's decided the best option for her was Chemo to shrink the tumor.
Well it turns out the chemo is making her more sick. I don't know the details of everything. All I know is that it doesn't look promising for her. She has asked that all her children come see her. So my mom is leaving tonight and they are calling hospice on Monday.
I really really wish I can jump on a plane and go see her. I am thankful though I got to see her last summer when I was out in Florida on business, That was just a short Saturday visit but at least it is better than nothing.
I am continuing to pray for her health and strength. My God is bigger and better than any Dr and I know he is a healing God. I know He can heal her if it is in his will so at this point I am praying for the LORD's will. I want to be selfish and want Him to heal her. But if that is not what he wants than there is nothing I can do about it. I just know she has other great grandkids to meet in the future.
I just ask that you pray for her and her condition
Waiting for you :)
Friday, September 9, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Another fork in the road
David an I have some more decisions to pray and think about. Do we look at other agencies in town or do we sit back and be patient for this agency. How do we know what the Lord wants for us and what is the desires of our hearts. Lots of prayer and seeking going on. I will continue to keep you posted on which way the Lord directs us.
Friday, September 2, 2011
The Interview Results
We finally got our call from the agency today and unfortuntaly we didn't make it in. She said we were a good canidate and we can try again in February to get in. She said they were looking more for families that already had children because they have a shortage of those families.
I want to cry but I know that is not going to change anything. Sometime it makes me feel like I am not fit to be a mother but on the other hand it just makes me want to push more for my goal. All I want to do is be a Godly mother to a child that needs a loving home and I have that loving home to give. Sometime I just don't understand God's plan but we are not suppossed to understand his plan for us. I have worked so hard to be a mother that it hurts when I can't be. I guess you really don't understand until you are put in that situation.
Deep down I know that this means that the child He has planned for us is not ready for us but when The LORD does finally reveal his plan to us it will be one glorious day and I can't wait for that to happen and I can forget about all this heartache
Psalm 37: 3-5-
Trust in the LORD, and do good; [so] shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed. Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring [it] to pass.
I want to cry but I know that is not going to change anything. Sometime it makes me feel like I am not fit to be a mother but on the other hand it just makes me want to push more for my goal. All I want to do is be a Godly mother to a child that needs a loving home and I have that loving home to give. Sometime I just don't understand God's plan but we are not suppossed to understand his plan for us. I have worked so hard to be a mother that it hurts when I can't be. I guess you really don't understand until you are put in that situation.
Deep down I know that this means that the child He has planned for us is not ready for us but when The LORD does finally reveal his plan to us it will be one glorious day and I can't wait for that to happen and I can forget about all this heartache
Psalm 37: 3-5-
Trust in the LORD, and do good; [so] shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed. Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring [it] to pass.
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