I am writing this to let you know that waiting is not so easy. I know everything happens for a reason and God has a plan for us but that doesn't make the waiting any easier. How can I miss someone I never even met or hasn't even been born yet or may not even be conceived yet? My heart aches to be a mother and I wonder if that day will ever get to come. We have been working with our agency for 2 years now and have been in the adoptive parent pool for one of those years. I go through my up and downs. I know that God has the perfect child for us but waiting on him or her is so hard when I want nothing more to be a mom.
I know that God can see the big picture and He is looking down right now saying be patient my child for I have it under control. Its like a child waiting for Christmas to come and wanting to know what the get right now. I know that one day when this journey is behind us and we have our child all the pain and sadness I feel will all be just a memory and our child will be worth the wait and I will hardly remember what it is like to have a house empty of quietnes and toys.
I am praying the Lord's will be done but I also am praying it is sooner than later. I just ask that you continue to pray for the right child to come into our home and the The Lord will give me peace in waiting on the child he has planned for us.
Philippians 4:19 - But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
